I love you. Oh g-oh my god that just came flying out of my face! It was some kind of… I love you. Just.. God, I did it again! I love you. I do. I just… I love you and I have been trying not to say it. I have been trying so hard to just smash it down and ignore it and not say it and… Jackson is a great guy! He is. He is gorgeous and he’s younger than you and he doesn’t have any grandkids or babies with his lesbian b.f.f’s and he’s an Avery and he likes me, you know? He really likes me! But it was never gonna work out because I, I love YOU. I am so in love with you. And you? You’re- You’re-You’re IN me. You’re like- it’s like a disease. It’s like I am infected by Mark Sloan. and I can’t think about anything or anybody and I can’t sleep. I can’t breathe . I can’t eat and I love you. I just.. I love you all the time. Every minute of every day and I love you.